Journey To A Fresh Start

I am safe now. My fear of homelessness is alleviated...mostly. As of today I have enough to pay off our home at 5718 Brook Bend Dr. this is a miracle! This is divine. Today, Nov 9th, I just paid down my mortgage to 200k left (let me just be looking at the remaining money for some time b4 I pay it all off 🤣).  I am in awe of what God has done. Me a squatter with Aunty Tolu, Lara and Nkem - during the course of my tumultuous marriage, a nomad (moved 7 times in 5 years), a renter. A woman who was asked to move out of the marital home like I was picked up from the street. Formerly, a regular timid little girl from Moradeyo st., Maza maza, Lagos. Aaah! ...oluwa to bi lo ba.  The abuse started many years prior but around September 2015, I left our home on Mound Lake Dr - to stay with my friend Nkem - fearing for my safety. A few days prior, my husband at the time attacked me physically. He punched and kicked me numerous times - bellowing the phrase "do you think you can be rude to my m

 "Update your views effectively (beliefs are hypothesis to be tested not treasures to be protected"). I could not find the words to describe the phase I stumbled into from end of October 2021 to November 2022. It was a very weird phase in my journey. A period were I was testing every thing I held true in the area of chastity. All my life I wore the good girl label like a badge of honor. Wore it with pride and dignity. It was a BIG part of my identity, a huge part of who I was. Until October 2021 after that major blow out with my mom, followed immediately by what felt like a betrayal by my children - I think something broke. Not physically but emotionally and spiritually. That night I cursed at my children for even entertaining the idea of going to live with dad, his girlfriend and new kid. This was not the 1st time they romanticed the idea with me. While my logical brain knew, they were too naive and too unassuming to realize they were being manipulated and enticed with world