Reporting outburst to my Aunty

Good evening Aunty, please let me report my self to you ma as i know it will sooner or later get back to you. I just had a major outburst with my mom in front of mama peter and in the midst of it I went off talking about all the way she seems to only criticize me all my life. Not much and support from her when people ( tumis family, lekans family, seniors in boarding school, prayer partner pastors etc) come and lie to her that I did something wrong.

Instead of giving me the benefit of a doubt she will take sides with these 3rd parties and I am left to my own. Her criticisms since my childhood (has nothing to do with her growing old now) never helped me build a healthy self esteem. I had to prayerfully build one myself in my older years.

Don't think she realizes how damaged my marriage left me. I am trying to heal from the last couple of years of lekan and his family's abusive drama. Criticisms edpecially from my mom only trigger all the memories of abuse I endured from friends in my childhood to  husband in my adulthood.

I need time to heal. I will help her with her remaining opthalmologist appointments but no more running around for her trying to broker baby sitting or cooking business for her with my friends. I will rather give her the money she believes she can make from those businesses.
I am extremely tired from 3+ years of a sanity whooping divorce process + single parenting + a stressful job all happening at the same time.
I feel like I am beginning to have another stress breakdown again and my bosses at work are noticing and all my parents seem to care about is that i run a 'million' errands for them while Debo does the minimum he can do and Seun is left to his devices.